Letting Go...My Revelation

Recently, I had a falling out with one of my oldest friends...I have known him since I was 9.  I won't go into to details about the falling out because frankly it is none y'alls business...LOL "Why did you bring it up then geesh?" you asked... Well, it helped bring me to my current revelation.  When we get along, we are like Tony the Tiger GREAT!!! OH-but when we are mad, it is the Cold War... We know the other person is there, but we choose not speak or to acknowledge that person...I know petty.  It was this last fight which really got me to thinking...Why do I hold a grudge so long against this person when most of our fights are about nothing? Why do I sit around and put my life on pause waiting on him to apologize first?  In that moment, I realize was being a big baby and very immature in my emotions...I decided to put my big girl panties on get over whatever we were fussing about and forgive him. In that precise moment, I realize I had overcome something and gained a small victory over my emotions...

When my emotions are out of whack, I seek food to comfort me.  This would have been a prime situation for me to run into the arms of Krispy Kreme Donuts, Big Macs, and Rocky Road Ice cream. But I didn't do that.  I didn't talk about it with everyone. (sometimes talking to people keeps the problem fresh in our mind and we can't process it and move on) I processed my feelings through a lot of prayers and release it.  I release years of heartache, heartbreak, and disappointment. I release my own expectations and demands I had placed on this friend.  I defined his place in my life. (He Makes Me Crazy!!! We all have one of those) He is simply Family.

When I release those old emotions and decided to do a new thing, I felt this freshness and newness come over me.  I gain a new ZEAL for PhatSkinny Chic.  I refocused my energy on my weight-loss journey.  I crossed over the emotional barrier or wall which has been blocking me for months to push through to the next phase of my life.

On my weight loss journey, I have discovered  eating right and exercising is only a small fraction of the plan. It is also about facing those demons and giants of my past personal experiences I must face.  I don't want to yo-yo diet...I want permanent lasting results.  I want a lifestyle change.  I am 9 months into my journey, I thought I would be further along in shedding pounds but much of these 9 months I have been shedding emotional and spiritual weight.  I have been discarding my past regrets and learning more ways of how to overcome poor decisions. My journey has been so much more than just shedding pounds...It has been about shedding those things which have been weighing me down.

I share my experience to encourage you...On the road to becoming healthy, don't just make sure your body is tight and right but make sure your emotions, mind and spirit is getting right along with it....So whatever changes needed to be made, now is the time to make them...For me, I am learning not let my emotions rule over me...I got things to do and don't want to keep getting stuck in the same rut...

Well until Next Time...